Monday, December 31, 2012

Love Lesson

Good Morning my lil Delights  ..... We all have our own definition of "Love" ....Consider the chance that your definition doesnt match up w/ the person you share your love w/ (gasp - like that happens lol) .... If its not YOUR definition ... Does it mean they dont love you? 
While most of us face this w/ all relationships we get offended when our expectations are mot met.  While our expression of love may change w/ the situation isnt it love non the less??.
Its our "needs" that hinder our progress.  I need someone who can .... this or that.
A wise man told me .... It takes time for me to love you.  I want to know YOU ... not superficially but deep inside.  This is a beautiful statement .... IF its in truth & built on a solid foundation.
What I have found is we should eliminate our definitions COMPLETELY!!!  OUR definitions (expectations) are what cause disappointment and rejection in ourselves.
Since I have become a Christian I have realized the base of love needs to forever be rooted in God. I don't need to have "punishments or rejections" .... I assure you the things God can / will do to someone who abuses his children are much worse than anything I could ever do.  There is a point where God may tell me to exit a relationship or move on...  but he expects me to maintain MY/HIS steady path. 
Concerning myself with others only holds me back. Sometimes our travels in life will be with someone walking next to us & sometimes it wont be ... But God will ALWAYS be there.

Reflection 2012

As I look back over everything that has happened .... I must admit ... Ima bad bitch!  =)

Divorce - On my Own - no lawyer
Bankruptcy - On my Own - no lawyer
College - 1 Semester - On my own
Weight Loss - 45 lbs ON my own
Daughters - Still living - on my own  =)

I have suffered multiple set backs to ... but why focus on what didnt happen when SO much has happened???!!!

My daughters and I are getting closer and closer every day.  Im learning to balance being a single parent, a woman who is in a semi relationship .... opening my mind to different definitions of love life and creation. 

Ive made new friends and eliminated ones who weren't moving forward.

I truly wish I had some witty comment to sum up ... oh wait I do ... #GoRogue#  This is my new outlook for 2013 and its helping me close out 2012.

#GoRogue# ...

Is simply this ....

Ladies - stop worrying about what others think ... do not be defined by your hair, your curves, your appetite, your "haters" or your "followers" .... Go Rogue - and create your definition of who you are.  You fuck up today ... #GoRogue# and create a new tomorrow.  Live in the moment as much as possible.

Looking for love? - GoRogue and create that love within yourself!  Know that you are enough.  Can't find a man to come into your life?  Sweetheart ... BE ROGUE! - Realize there are over MILLION men in this world .... the 20 you have met dont even matter in the grand picture of it all.  -- TASTE THE RAINBOW ladies!!  *giggles*

Can't find a TRADITIONAL job? - #GoRogue#  Volunteer the knowledge you have to everyone you meet who needs it!  Create the "need" for your skills .... Hell even a hoe aint broke right now.  You'd be surprised how many lawyers or offices will hire someone JUST to type letters at home to save money.

#GoRogue#

Shock the world with what you have to offer and make no apologizes for who you are!

-1 Love

... Can You See Me ...

I'm always there ...
Standing, sitting or walking next 2 you
Waiting for you 2 share
If you looked ...
You might see how I ....
Revealed my truth 2 thee
Im simple .... often blend
Maybe even fade
Silently gleaming of a love escapade
Youve heard my words & pleas
A vacant response .... indeed
So I must wonder ....
Do you see all that we can be?